I am BASCIALLY trying to read up Java . And I feel SINKS!

Lucky the adorable Shih tzu after the hidden Toy Ball.

Momets of leaving

Embarrasement

The only laughter I hear is only when someone leaves. I feel a sense of embarrassment .

Kinda of walking into a download Spiral

I am hoping for miracle to happen God . I feel I am suddenly on the downward spiral .
I hoping the miracle phone call . I should be patient .
Lord help me to enlightened my burdens and bring hope back into my life. I feel very useless and helpless and like always regret any decision I make .

Rejections - Feel Good by David Burns

1. Remember that when someone reacts negatively to you , It may be his or her irrational thinking that is at the heart of disapproval .
2. If the criticism is valid, this need not destroy you . You can pinpoint your error and take steps to correct it . You can learn from your mistakes , and you don't have to be ashamed of them . If you are human then you should and must make mistakes at times.
3. If you have goofed up , It does not follow that you are a BORN LOSER. It is impossible to be wrong all the time or even most of the time. Think about the thousands of thing you have done right in your life! Furthermore, you can change and grow .
4. Other people cannot judge your worth as a human being only the validity or merit of specific things you do or say .
5. Everybody will judge you differently no matter how well you do or how badly you might behave .Disapproval cannot spread like wildfire , and one rejection cannot lead to a never ending series of rejections .So even if worse come to worst and you do get rejected by someone , you can't end up totally alone .
6. Disapproval and Critism are usually uncomfortable, but the discomfort will pass .Stop Moping . Get involved in an activity you 've enjoyed in the past even though you feel certain it is absolutely pointless to start
7. Criticism and disapproval can upset you only to the extent that you " buy into " the accusations being brought against you .
8. Disapproval is rarely permanent . It doesn't follow that your relationship with the person who disapproves of will necessarily end just because you are being criticised . Arguments are part of living and in majority of cases you can come to a common understanding later on
9. If you are criticizing someone else , it doesn't make that person totally bad .Why give another individual the power and right to judge you ? We are all just human being, not supreme courts justices. Don't magnify other people until they are larger than life .

Rejections - Feel Good by David Burns

1. Remember that when someone reacts negatively to you , It may be his or her irrational thinking that is at the heart of disapproval .
2. If the criticism is valid, this need not destroy you . You can pinpoint your error and take steps to correct it . You can learn from your mistakes , and you don't have to be ashamed of them . If you are human then you should and must make mistakes at times.
3. If you have goofed up , It does not follow that you are a BORN LOSER. It is impossible to be wrong all the time or even most of the time. Think about the thousands of thing you have done right in your life! Furthermore, you can change and grow .
4. Other people cannot judge your worth as a human being only the validity or merit of specific things you do or say .
5. Everybody will judge you differently no matter how well you do or how badly you might behave .Disapproval cannot spread like wildfire , and one rejection cannot lead to a never ending series of rejections .So even if worse come to worst and you do get rejected by someone , you can't end up totally alone .
6. Disapproval and Critism are usually uncomfortable, but the discomfort will pass .Stop Moping . Get involved in an activity you 've enjoyed in the past even though you feel certain it is absolutely pointless to start
7. Criticism and disapproval can upset you only to the extent that you " buy into " the accusations being brought against you .
8. Disapproval is rarely permanent . It doesn't follow that your relationship with the person who disapproves of will necessarily end just because you are being criticised . Arguments are part of living and in majority of cases you can come to a common understanding later on
9. If you are criticizing someone else , it doesn't make that person totally bad .Why give another individual the power and right to judge you ? We are all just human being, not supreme courts justices. Don't magnify other people until they are larger than life .

“Always do what you are afraid to do.”

“Always do what you are afraid to do.”

I finally did what I am afraid to do .AND I nolonger afraid . It is a good feeling .


“Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.”

Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

My Six Important Question

1. What was or is your favorite pastime or hobby?
Playing With Dog
Creating Website
2. What did you want to be when you grew up?
Policeman

3. What do your friends and family say you’re really good at?
Artistic

4. If you could do anything you wanted and money was not an issue, what would you do?
open a pet store


5. What are your dreams or fantasies that sometimes wake you up in the middle of the night?
having thousand of dogs fluffy surronding me and kissing me .

6. What do you sometimes do that can take hours, and yet you don’t even notice the passing of time?
drawing looking at sea dun know what actually I can do .